When I was a little girl I dreamed of doing many things. Directing an orphanage, building a homeless shelter, starting a youth program, going on world missions, fostering children ( I guess now I see why my friends call me Mother Teresa, Ha!) Anyway, among those things I also dreamed of being a writer. Crazy, right? I mean these were the dreams dearest to my heart. Dreams I always held close to me and never told anyone about because I honestly thought it was too crazy and they would never come true. I often thought about Psalm 37:4 “Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.” Except…I wanted the second part of that verse way more than I wanted the first one. Many times I’ve found myself frustrated because I felt like none of my dreams would ever come true. I held on to the second part of the verse and asked God why in the world he wasn’t giving me the desires of my heart. Well, when you ask God questions like that, you better be prepared for the answer. It was because they were selfish desires. To desire to do good things is not bad, but even good deeds can have bad intentions. The thing is, you can’t chose and pick what you want from scripture to benefit you and ignore what is not as much fun. When you delight in the Lord, you spend time in His presence, you are filled with his joy and peace, so much so, that his will for your life starts becoming clear. See, I used to want to do “good” things because I felt as a Christian I was obligated to, or I felt I needed to out of commitment. But now, anything I do is an overflow of me Delighting in Him. I want to do good deeds as an expression of worship to our Father, because I love Him. That is when our desires will line up with God’s will.
I started to blog a few months ago because I simply felt led to do it. I struggled with it at first because I felt like the least qualified person, actually, I still feel that way. A few weeks ago I got an email from an online magazine that one of my blog articles had got picked up and will be getting published. I’m not gonna lie, I cried like a baby. I’ve had a lot of “aha” moments lately, and that was definitely one of them. In that moment I thought about that little girl who had that dream, and a lot of things that have happened in my life in between. Things that made me believe that I would never amount to anything, but I believe with all my heart that God gives each of us special gifts. He gives us these gifts so that He can bring glory to himself through each of us. I also believe that he puts desires in our hearts at a very young age. Desires that turn into dreams that sometimes seem too crazy to even say out loud. I don’t know what you dream about these days. Starting your own business? Adopting children? Going back to school? Getting married? Starting a non-profit? Becoming a missionary? Support a cause dear to your heart? What I do know is that God puts desires in our hearts for a reason, no matter how far fetched they might seem. It is what we decide to do with those dreams that count. As we commit ourselves to Him and trust Him, our desires will align with his will for us. God wants to use you. He wants to use your gifts. He wants to give you the desires of your heart, and make your dreams come to pass. After all, He is the one who put them there.
“Delight in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.”- Psalm 37:4 ❤